Today I had several social encounters, and all left me feeling awkward and stupid. I always feel this way when I have conversations with people that steer away from small talk. A female coworker of mine ( I work with all males besides two women) has been discussing my "fake boobies" and tattoos with ALL the men I work with, and one of the men I barely know told me today. So I had lunch with him and we talked about various things. Nothing was said that would make me feel so stupid, but at the end of the day when I left to go home, the overwhelming anxiety/ paranoia that I had said something wrong at some time hit me.... like always.
I wish I had someone to tell me if I really was as stupid and awkward as I feel that I am, or if I am actually an o.k. person. If I could just get a new attitude about myself, maybe I would feel better overall... I have no clue how to fix what is wrong.
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